Episode 9 and I was just about ready to dismiss season 2 of the crown as dry and boring. Having no particular interest in Prince Philip, I was especially disinterested in this episode – I even thought that it was very random to do a whole episode about where Charles went to school – I mean, who cares? I watched it for the sake of watching it anyway. Never thought I will be able to pick up a good parenting tip from this show.
I’m not a good story reteller so I suggest you watch it yourself. I found the episode weirdly relatable and disturbing at the same time – enough for me to blog about it anyway. So in this episode, Philip – who was shown to have quite a traumatic childhood on top of being forced into this particularly good school (and struggling through it successfully) – is now, in turn, forcing his son Charles to attend the same school. Placing a huge deal of expectation, he becomes disappointed when Charles end up not meeting his expectations and so he basically drags his son through five more years in that school.
As a child, heavy expectations were placed on me as well – some of them I had met, some I hadn’t. In the end, I didn’t think I turned out too bad. My childhood was far from turbulent and traumatic but I know that when I have a kid I will be placing very high standards on them too. If anything, I would even prefer for them to be educated in good Philippine universities as well. The way teens are babied through uni here in Au (and even having an actual choice if they wanted to go to uni or not) is just so unacceptably un-Asian! I was prepared to be the bad cop, unfun, grade-conscious mum – in the name of my kid’s own good…
Then I watched this episode.
And I realise the obvious – that placing heavy expectations whilst withholding emotional support from your child is basically setting them up for growing up exactly the way you did, the way I did. Now, I didn’t exactly end up callous, conceited nor broken. I guess being close to my three brothers helped even out the lack. And, really, it could easily have gone the other way. I could have ended up a gritless, lazy, motivation-less person. Thank God I didn’t. So maybe risking the 50-50 chance my kid will be scarred for life is enough for me to consider nicer ways to impose my standards.
Ugh! This business of raising up another human being is proving to be tedious already – and it hasn’t even started yet! Anyway, it’s safe to say that after watching this episode, I will be trying my best to support my future kids emotionally through the inexplicably high standards that will (still) be placed on them. And if still end up being the stern, cold, unfun mum that I will (by default) be (ENTJ alert!), at least I know now to recognise that there are (and should be) better ways. And maybe I’ll go from there. *insert oh well emoji here*